The sky is permanent
Our troubles are not
Lightning piercing
Through this darkness
Reminds us to fight fiercely
For the light of our world
To bring us back home
We live in the age
Of ignoring each other
No offense taken
From our lonely gaslit rooms
Put those hard to say
Out loud feelings to words
Or watch her go because
She simply did not know
She loved
His modest gift
Of a Christmas angel ornament
On a long dreary day
Being met with a bright smile
Like an unexpected rainbow
Will carry you through
The beast was blinded
By the love light in her eyes
She could sense his pain
As he turned away
He was built to attack her
Instead she had broken him
She was free to flee
Yet she chose to stay
Her eyes had reflected
Love hidden in his heart
I wish I marked the date
You last held me in your arms
I would turn back the pages of my calendar
To circle the date
Before our evolving love faded
By what could not survive distance
We would have broken our hearts
If we had become an us
Do not allow
Anyone’s assessment
Of who you are
Dictate your life
It is you alone
Who gets to decide
Nothing hurts me
More deeply
Than your indifferent
Heart
Come follow the light
I know you cannot see it
Let me be your guide
I feel like a child
To have to say it this way
You hurt my feelings
Her eyes glistened
With pent up tears
As she let go of him
Your dismissive
Do not worry
Stung more
Than his silence
She was a shadow
Of her former self
I held her frail hand
Watching her favorite film
She fell asleep before
Dorothy got to Oz
I gazed at the wilted roses
In her handcrafted vase
It was not summer anymore
I would soon have to watch
Seasons pass without her
I wonder
How many people
There are out there
Who think of each other
All the time every day
But do not speak
To each other anymore
And neither one
Could clearly tell you
Why
When you are silent
Your heart will speak to you
Listen and feel the answers
To the questions
You are afraid to admit
You need to ask yourself
To find the peace you seek
He felt like a waste
If only he could heal her
Love was not enough
In the movies
People DO things
No one stays stuck
Characters have to change
Do and say the scary things
To fight for the life they want
Your life is your movie
Live it that way
Even in my dreams
You do not understand me
We are losing us
Sleep is a drug.
Christmas never
Turned his heart to gold
She was the one
Haunted by ghosts
Who held no answers
Or guidance for her
Just left her wishing
She never took that walk
In that garden
That summer
With him
A decade ago
Our hope is not lost
Change is on the horizon
We created it
Absorb the relief
You are still afraid to feel
It is real
When you find yourself
Broken and beaten down
Beyond the reach of hope
Look to the sky
It’s beauty will rescue you
Let me take this burden
Off your shoulders
You are not alone
I have known depression
No one is immune
Standing beside you
Playing it cool
My heart murmuring
With memories of us
All I do is sleep all day
Trying to dream
My depression away
Dreams are visitors with answers
We forget by morning
Unless a premonition insists
I discovered my pent up feelings
Unraveling as your long overdue
Apology unfolded
I believe New Year’s Resolutions
Are now a notion of the past
With no consistency in life
How can we resolve to change
Let us grant ourselves permission
To simply be human together
My kitten adores
Tinsel on my Christmas tree
More than you do me
Love is an illusion
We all desperately
Need to believe in
I will if you do
I bid you adieu
Is my forced romantic phrase
Begging you to leave
When a person says
They are a sociopath
Believe them and leave
Poems of Pandemic Days by Alice Curley 